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saavira
01 July 2009 @ 08:45 pm
This post is pretty much gonna consist of me blabbering on like an idiot. Feel free to not read.

But...OMG! I saw JENSEN ACKLES in PERSON!!! He's so freaking gorgeous! What the hell!

Anyways, random siting in a restaurant. Funny thing is I didn't even notice him at first, I was staring so hard at his girlfriend 'cause she was so pretty (should've known it was Daneel, but she's blonde now, so I didn't make the connection). Then she turned to him and I had a mini-heart attack at the table. And they were seated RIGHT BEHIND ME! He was literally 30 cm away from me. Gah! Also, not to sound creepy (well, more creepy then I already am), he smelled really good (didn't intentionally sniff him, the smell just kinda waft over when he sat down).

*flails*

That ends my creepy post.

EEEE! JENSEN ACKLES!!!!
 
 
Current Mood: excitedexcited
 
 
saavira
I think I am slowly losing my mind...from the lack of sleep. I can't remember the last time I pulled all-nighters. I've been so good this year about keeping with my school work. Ugh. But procrastination always creeps up on you.

Also, my love life confuses the hell outta me. So since the last time I posted, my ex tried to get back with me, I slept with my crush, and this random guy I met at sex pub (my school has themed pub, I promise you it was not an orgy) actually texted me.

Now, I said no to my ex, because I don't want to be in a relationship where I'm constantly second guessing whether or not he's going to break it off with me again, since the last break up came so outta nowhere. I kinda felt like I kicked a puppy after I told him that, but I remain firm in my decision. He told me he's changed, but it's only been a month, how much could he have really changed?

The guy I had a crush on for forever does not know what the hell he wants with life right now. We still need to have a talk about this. He just confuses me. One minute he acts like he likes me and is all 'oh, come over and hang out!' and the next he's ignoring my calls and texts and msgs. Like I say. Very confusing. But when we are talking everything still feels the same. He's totally ignoring the fact that we slept together and while that is ok right now, since I have too much schoolwork to do to also deal with his inner turmoil. Once I am done with this sucker, we are having a little chat. If I'm being honest with myself? We haven't been just friends for like 2 years now.

So yea, I was so annoyed at my friend that I gave my number to this cute guy I was chatting with at the bar on pub night. I didn't think he was actually gonna do anything with the number, but he texted me back. So now I have him on facebook, but he hasn't done anything to contact me since. I'm giving him 'til Sunday until I delete him off facebook. Also, the fact that he's 28 and was at a university pub night kinda wigs me out. So we'll see how that goes.

Ok, I have procrastinated long enough now. I'm going to write 2 more pages of this essay if it kills me.
 
 
Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: the humming of the laptop and the whirlwind that is my mind
 
 
saavira
21 February 2009 @ 01:31 am
So my boyfriend of about 9 months just broke up with me about...2-3 weeks ago. And yes, I'm fine now. I did the whole suddenly burst out crying thing already. It was quite embarrassing, but oh well.

I'm still not quite sure what happened. We didn't have a fight. Nothing was wrong (that I know of). He basically walked me home and broke up with me on the way. Even brought my stuff that I left over at his place over. But that last bit wasn't quite him being an asshole and more of him wanting to save me the trouble of having to go to his place to pick them up. Still, I don't think he realizes that it sends the message of 'I completely just want to be rid of you, so hey, here's your stuff'. Oh, boys.

Anyways, I've been thinking about our relationship and it's totally better this way. He has stress issues and tend to be really short with people when he gets that way. And I usually get the brunt of it 'cause I'm was at his place all the time. So most of the time he just made me want to smack him upside the head, but I just push it down and remind myself that he was really stressed with schoolwork and stuff. Completely ignoring the fact that _I_ was really stressed too, but I never act like that towards him. Also, with him, I always accepted the fact that I was last on his priority list and as my friends has told me, I really shouldn't have had to. And plus, I'm pretty sure I was only with him to get over the fact that I'm pretty much in love with one of my bestfriends who had a girlfriend at the time.

Oh life.

Yes, the guy that I totally thought that I might've been homewrecking. But now that we're both single, things are back to square one. With the whole cuddling/napping/massage thing. He's totally sending me mixed messages and I'm confused as hell. Like, he'll act all sweet with me when we're alone, but when it's us plus one of our other friends, he'll barely look at me. And I wanna say something to him, but how do you bring up a subject like this. We've both been ignoring this thing between us for so long it seems like a big thing now.

So yea, I just don't know.
 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
 
 
saavira
17 December 2008 @ 02:20 am
...why must you suck so? Omg, I'm so close to being done with this semestre. So close. Two more exams and I get to go home after like 5 months. Yay! Except my last exam scares the shit outta me. I hear that one girl has almost a panic/anxiety attack everytime she starts thinking too hard about it.

It's worth 50% of my grade. Gah. And the sad thing is, out of all the people I know that's in the class, I got the highest mark on the midterm. I got 70%, people. 70. That's the highest mark out of the 10-20 people I know in the class. That is sad, yo. And about 37% of the class failed.

I just...yea. It's scary.

Oh, if you're curious, it's a third year biology course. Advanced in call biology.

Yea, I dunno what I was thinking either.
 
 
saavira
15 September 2008 @ 10:52 am
So I work at Starbucks and knowing how much that I love coffee you would think that this would be an _awesome_ job for me. FUCK NO! My manager sucks. He hired new people (which, yea, good, 'cause we were short staffed for the longest time), but doesn't train them. So we would have 6 people behind the bar and only about 2 of us have any clues as to what we're doing. We have to train them, deal with the mass amount of students who want there coffee and only get paid about $9/hr. And he keeps booking me for 8 hour long shift. DUDE! I cannot work 8 hours every shift! I have school work I need to do you fucktard. Take today for example (I'm on my 1 hour break between classes right. The only one I have today, btw), I have class from 9AM - 2PM. I start work at 2 and don't get to go home 'til 11PM.

Kill me now.

Going to my class now. Hopefully everyone else is having a better day than I am.
 
 
Current Location: at school
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Mistakes We Knew We Were Making - Straylight Run
 
 
 
saavira
06 August 2008 @ 03:14 am
So I just realized that I haven't posted in this for all of 5 months. Um..go me? I dunno, life just has been kinda blah lately. But, ooh, no longer single here, yay! Don't really wanna gush, but he's awesome and so cute :P And after his gig next month, I can totally say I'm dating a rockstar, lol...not that I'll ever say that to his face. And I find it really funny that the first thing my mom asked me after I told her I was dating someone was, 'is he cute?'. My mom = 12 yrs old sometimes. And then followed by, 'why do you only date white boys?'. *facepalm* I mean, there was this other guy who was, by the way, not white, but totally only seeing me to get into my pants, so I dumped his ass about 4 weeks in.

Also? Having a discussion over the beautiful people in Torchwood with your extremely gay and fabulous ex-Bio TA? Most awesomeness and bizarre thing ever! But so far he hasn't seen the ending to series 2 :( Poor Chad...he's gonna be heartbroken, he has quite the little crush on Tosh. But am very glad that I found other people besides me that watches these shows :P

I'm totally just writing this post to avoid finishing my sociology essay...nothing new here. Except the routine activity theory? Actually some pretty interesting stuff. I'm kinda surprised at how much I enjoy sociology. I find the topics extremely interesting and my professor is so freakin' awesome. So yea, back to essay-writing now.
 
 
Current Music: The Distance - Oliver James
 
 
 
saavira
15 February 2008 @ 03:36 am
My roommate just came home drunk like there's no tomorrow. I have never seen her so fucked up before. I think she's fine now. She's puked a couple of times and we finally convinced her to get into her bed instead of just lying around the bathroom. For a moment there we were kinda worried that she might have alcohol poisoning, but she puked again and seemed more coherent and lucid. She was speaking in full sentences and everything instead of just making mumbling noises. I'm gonna check on her in a little while to make sure she's still okay. But yea, that was an interesting experience.

Also, 6 hours of people arguing over an organic chemistry assignment? So not fun. God, my professor is evil.
 
 
saavira
My boy non-problem that I've been dealing with for the better part of a year.

The beginning...Collapse )
...is it still considered homewrecking if you're just cuddling with the guy?...Collapse )

I know I sound really down about this...but really, I'm mostly okay with it. It sucks, I'm not gonna lie, it sucks so much, but I've accepted it.
 
 
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Just Missed the Train - Kelly Clarkson
 
 
saavira
13 December 2007 @ 07:26 am
Ok, this is really really bad. I have a final exam in less than an hour (yes, it is 7:30AM. and no, I haven't slept since I got up this morning at 11AM, but wow is that so not new) and all I can think about is OMG OMG OMG OMG, I GET TO SEE COBRA STARSHIP next month!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

That is, if I get the tickets. BUT EEEEEEEEE!

Sherry, what the hell are you doing with your life? Get a grip.

GABE! And VICKY-T! My new girl crush, 'cause holy shit, have you seen her legs? They're like a mile long and fuck, she's hot.

OK, I must get dress now. And when I say get dress I mean, down that can energy drink, wear something that is not my pjs and is clean (might be hard to find, as I haven't done laundry in 2 weeks. this needs to be rectify and soon. i'm running outta underwear and socks. sigh.), and try to remember that after this exam I'll be done for this semestre. FUCK YEA!

But only after I'm done. So...in about 3-4 hours-ish.


EEEEE! COBRA STARSHIP! and I don't care what my friend thinks about them. If you don't want to dance listening to CS, you have no soul :P